"Most men come and go, and real friends understand"

ahhhhhhh for fucks sake!

I think I've become "immune" (see previous postings for reference of what the hell I"m talking about)

So headphones in, a minor ear ache but I don't really care to be honest... my head is throwing around my friendships today... so I started the shuffle with photograph.

I've spent my entire life looking for the quality I find in my small but highly exclusive group of friends. It is so hard to find it in one person, ONE. Nevermind a group. Looking back to friends of the past, its strange but true that all of them contributed to shaping me into who I am. Somehow, the ones who really meant something, regardless of who they are now, left their fingerprints on me while helping to mould me, contributing to the very essence of who I am as a person. Who knew that childhood friends, high school gossip, parties, and backstabbing would make such a difference. Battling my way through life with these people by my side gave me the foundation I needed to decide on what I want and need in a friend. Since it has been said that "men come and go, but friends are forever" I've decided to pick this apart and see how much I really believe in that saying that our friends have dished out while trying to make us feel guilty for ditching them for a new toy.

"Waiting on the world to change"

The saying that relationships come and go, but friends are forever.... is just poorly said. Actually, HORRIBLY said. Every friend wants to believe that they are a good enough friend to be worthy of forever. That they are more worthy or at the very least equal to the man you could be with for the rest of your life. But the truth of it is, most aren't. The very idea that the hours of shopping, laughing, gossiping, crying, and all those other things that friends do, can so easily be put aside for a possibility is enough to push some friends away. The fact of the matter is this; that is absolute, complete HORSE SHIT. I believe that a real friend, a true friend, would not under any circumstances be affected by the mere idea of being cast aside. Because, they would know that you are not casting them aside, but you are exercising your right divert your attention to someone who may not yet have faith that you will always be there. Someone who may not have put in the time and love into a relationship like others in your life have done. Friends who are worthy of forever do not put a date stamp on your last phone call, but exercise quality control instead.

"Paralyzer"

To have friends who don't judge you, no matter what your choices may be, are rare. Truly rare. And in my eyes, if you are stupid enough to be the friend of theirs that is not worthy of forever, then the problem lies with you. Not your friends. So my answer is this "Most men come and go, and real friends understand"

"all summer long"

So on that note, I raise an invisible bottle of corona in the air, and make a toast to my nearest & dearest. I thank you for standing beside me even when I embarass you, for holding me up when the gin bottle gets too heavy for me, for letting me rest my head on your shoulder when we've ended up somewhere that has no pillows, for making me cry from laughing so hard, for crying for me when my heart is broken, for hugging me for no reason at all, and for being so fucking awesome that I know I never have to worry that you'll feel "cast aside" when I'm with a guy who is almost as amazing as you.