To be only Human

Tonight I was at home by myself doing some thinking about the events that recently have been taking place in my life and felt the need to write how I feel about it. I also felt the need to share it, not because I think that everyone should look at life this way, but just so that maybe in the mix of your life you can find some way to embrace being human.

Sometimes in life all you want is to close your eyes and feel the burden, pain & heartache just melt away. To feel like you did when the world did not rest on your shoulders. When you had the luxury of worrying about things that are trivial. To know that you had the choice to grow and go in any direction. Unknowing that one day life would catch up with you and pull you down, break your heart and stop you dead in your tracks so you have no choice but to stare your life in the face. You wonder how the hell you made it this far, what was in your heart that fought for the chance to be staring your life in the eyes and to fight for the right to do better?

If you look at life as a series of choices instead of sacrifices, is it possible to live a life without regret? I have heard people say, I am only human... It makes me question ones character. We as humans are capable of so much. To be Only Human is not an excuse but extraordinary reason to feel, to choose and live. I can not change anything about the choices I have made, and as much as I think that I would want to sometimes, my choices have contributed to the creation of who I have become so far. I am reaching for a life without regret, and every so often I stop to stare my life in the eyes and let my heart overpower the pull of life and push me with a will I do not think I can ever understand, to fight to look it in the eyes again.