Ok, so I have this playlist that sorta gets me into writing mode, and then I hit shuffle and hope I get something that takes me back to a place where I can pull thoughts together enough to have them make sense...
Just breathe by pearl jam came on....and it just made my head spin... like I'd been drinking too much and laid down in bed...a huge flood of emotion and thoughts, not necessarily tied together either.
My thoughts started with the past. How it creeps up on you, how it blasts its way into the present, affects your decisions, changes you, but doesn't have to define you. But what I really think about is; if we choose to live in the moment, do those moments turn into the decisions that affect the bigger picture? Are those the defining moments in our past, the moments that got us to where we are right now? Do they always have to be tied together? I always say to live your life without regrets. But there is NO way of knowing if its regrettable until the very end. Is our lives truly just a roll of the dice? A gamble we take everyday with our decisions and the consequences that come from them?
To live in the moment, throw caution to the wind... does it really lead to a happier life? If you can live, and I mean TRULY live in that moment, and forget everything else, that high, the rush.... no matter how long it lasts, its what you REMEMBER. You don't forget the most exciting moments in your life. Regardless of whether they were intentional or not, the memory will give you rush all over again. So, here's what I think about it, Live in the moment? YES. FUCK YES. WITHOUT QUESTION, DO IT.
If our lives truly are a gamble we take, then go all in. At least in the end, you can say that it was exciting and amazing. Don't let your decisions define you, but create you. And for those of you who don't know the difference, stop reading my blog. I believe that we are always changing and growing. If you let one decision stop that, it has defined you. The things we do, the people we meet, they change us, and we change them. Each and every single one of the people in my life, regardless of how significant, have affected me in some way, and when I tell the stories of my life, they will forever be a part of that... just as long as the story after them hasn't erased my memory :D
Live in the moment... because really, who or what are you holding out for? How do you know that isn't going to be the BEST thing you've ever done?
i dont think its the decisions that define us but the mistakes that we make.. ppl will always learn better form ther own mistakes than some one telling them why is that i wonder? so is change apartaking of learning experience partly yes i think so.
ReplyDeletelucas
To an extent I agree with both you and Lucas. I think the things that most define who we are and what we become are the more traumatic events in our lives, but also what we chose to do with that event after wards. How we deal with it that will shape that uncut gemstone if you will.
ReplyDeleteJust Breathe by Pearl Jam.......cry every damn time I hear that song, but I freaking love it!
ReplyDeleteIt is one of those songs that makes you think about shit, both good and bad.