Til next time.....

For tonight... I want to pretend that you're here...that none of the hard, complicated, or sad in life exists... What if you... What if you could do that for me... just for tonight... just one night, make it all ok?

I can close my eyes and see your face, your smile... reminding me of who you are, and how much you mean to me.


Gains vs losses...

is it even possible to ever stay ahead? Even when it comes to love, family, friends, spouses... they come-they go. They bring something to you, to your heart... touch your soul, and when they leave, there is an impossible measurement of how much they gave your heart vs. how much they took with them. The battles we fight, the friends that we make, the hearts that we break, all part of the never ending circle...An endless amount of deposits and withdrawls, but some deposit more and withdraw less.... And others... Others, make huge deposits and huge withdrawls... and that withdrawl can leave you in a negative balance for a long time...maybe forever, because there is no one else, no one who can even come close. Some equally good... just a different currency.

So we keep going, hoping that one day, we'll feel more balanced. Be at peace with our amazing gain that caused our tremdous loss... cause one would not have been possible without the other.

And I'd rather feel that loss forever than to never have known you at all. I loved you, and I loved who I was with you in my life. A part of my heart is gone with you, but forever will be the love you left behind. Know that you changed me, and I know I changed you... and I'll miss you til I see you again.