Can you sleep at night?

An Irish Lullaby....

Not a song I listen to often, but some reason it sticks with me tonight while I contemplate all the bullshit in life. All the logical and illogical crap that gets thrown in our direction on day to day basis, and our inner self justifying the whys or why not's.

In the past I've written about how the matters of the heart are the issues of our heads. The way we, as human beings logic our way through anything, or when we actually CAN'T find logic in something, it has a fucking textbook title?! Welcome to:

Cognitive dissonance. An uncomfortable feeling caused by holding two contradictory ideas simultaneously. Dissonance occurs when a person perceives a logical inconsistency in their beliefs, when one idea implies the opposite of another. The dissonance might be experienced as guilt, anger, frustration, or even embarrassment. A powerful cause of dissonance is an idea in conflict with a fundamental element of the self-concept, such as "I am a good person" or "I made the right decision". The anxiety that comes with the possibility of having made a bad decision can lead to rationalization, the tendency to create additional reasons or justifications to support one's choices. (Thank you wikipedia)

But its not just bad decisions is it? Its EVERYTHING we do. The HORRIBLE question; why? Has fucked with us. When was the last time you answered with; why not?
Even to yourself? Nevermind anyone else who asks!!

As human beings, is it even possible to make a decision without rationalization? When we make "rash" decisions, is this just our way of doing what our gut tells us to do, or is it our rationalization that saves us from making stupid mistakes.... or worse, making the right ones? Can you even remember the last time you did something without thinking about it? And if you did, were you able to do it without justifying it after? Our peace of mind, our sanity, is created by our belief and faith in what we do, and who we are. Is it our rationalization that saves us from ourselves?

Everyday of our lives we convince ourselves that what we are doing is right. Then once we do that, we can convince others. And as long as everyone is convinced, we can sleep at night. Look ourselves in the mirror every morning. Rationalization comes into play with EVERYTHING we do. Some call it fate. Others call it luck. Whatever, call it what you will...

It brings me back to the basics of; YOU are the one who has to look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, YOU are the one who will lose the sleep at night if you don't have a sound mind. Does it matter if no one else can stand the sight of you? Maybe... but... in the end, its all on you. To me, your logic might be illogical, but what the hell do I know? I won't be the one losing sleep over it... so hey, whatever helps YOU sleep at night....right?

I guess the real problem with that is, what happens when we shouldn't be able to sleep at night.... but we do. Then what?