What`s your Flavour

Tonight I'm laying on my couch booking movie tickets for friday... Yes, it is a movie that either you will roll your eyes at, or squeal like a 13 year old girl over. I do both. Usually the squeal and then roll my eyes at myself. However, as my inspiration comes from the strangest sources sometimes, it got me on an abnormally long train of thought that landed in religion.

Crap. I fucking hate religion. Or more so, the topic of.

We are raised to believe that its only ok to have an imaginary friend up until a certain age, and then, after that its really not the greatest idea. However, if we can collectively come up with a vast majority of people to believe in the same imaginary friend, its called a religion. It creates a foundation to justify the rules and regulations we set out per culture and/or religion. For example; Christianity states in the 10 commandments that a man shall not commit adultery and thou shall not covet thy neighbors wife. And polygamy (which was originated FROM Christianity) is defined as a marriage that has more than 2 partners. So not to sound sexist, but it seems to me that "god" of christianity is a chick. And the "god" of polygamy is a man.

LOL, ok so before everyone gets all offended, there IS foundation of my basic interpretation. Think back to times way before ours. Romans, Greeks, etc. First, I'd like to point out that back then, it was incredibly NORMAL for a man to have a wife, children, a mistress and as I like to call it a "mister" as well. Orgy's and other sexual behaviours were common. Not frowned upon or condoned. And second, Women were also intimate with other women or often took male lovers but were expected to remain discreet. It wasn't the act itself that people were upset by, it was the simple fact that when it became public knowledge it was then a problem. back to basic's right? What goes on beyond closed doors, is nobody's business. As human beings, we haven`t really evolved that much. Actually, I`d say we`re worse. Which brings me back to my comparison of gods. Men, in most cases, want it all. The best of the best of everything. And women want to be better than the best- so the extreme point that you just can`t find any better and there for just having one of us is enough. Now, I as a woman, get what some of you are thinking. But, we all know, deep down in our hearts, that we are FAR more competitive than any man ever could be. And that is what drives us to be better than the best. Men will take the best of many things and be satisfied. As women, we strive to be more, do better, and be stronger. Our bodies CREATE life. A strength often overlooked by men. So before you get offended, stop to think and consider what I`m saying. You know there is a truth in it, in you...

Religion isn`t just about the sex though( Don`t I wish!) Its about faith. About believing is something- ANYTHING that will help ease our minds, and soothe our souls when we are at our loneliest, darkest, saddest moments. When we need to believe in a greater good, that there is a reason or just cause for our losses, hardships and other life lessons. Justification. We need it. We need to justify and understand. To logic. When there are things we cannot understand or justify, we turn to our imaginary friend for comfort. For praise. For Help. For guidance. In the end, it is our ACCEPTANCE and solely OUR CONSCIENCE ACCEPTANCE that not everything can be explained; THAT eases our mind. If you were to say a prayer without bowing your head (or other appropriate method of displaying your prayer) people just classify you as talking to yourself. Do this repeatedly and watch how quickly you see the white lights... of a padded room. I believe we all have the right to sanity. So, if religion is your sanity, your solace, keep your faith. Keep your sanity. However, where ever you find it.

So pick a religion, any religion. In the end, we all know one common thing. We die. I don`t think it matters if you believed in a god who thinks you should have one wife or 10. Or that you shouldn`t eat a certain animal or That you can`t be gay.
You should only be believing without doubt, that you lead a good life. That your intentions are good (even if the road to hell is paved with good intentions- lol) You do what you think is right. No, not everyone will agree with it. No, not everyone will support it. No, you will not always hear what you want to hear, and No, you will never convince me that is right for you is necessarily right for me.

Religion is kinda like ice cream, you pick the flavor you like at the time, and if you change your mind, no big deal, there`s many more to choose from, and new ones are popping up everyday. We shouldn`t make faces or judge each other decisions, our judgment comes from our beliefs being different than others. I say, accept it. Like you want others to accept your choices. Regardless of what they believe. The only common thing I`ve ever, in my lifetime have been able to agree on with every person I`ve met and discussed it with is simply this -
Treat others the way you want to be treated.

I don`t think you can ever go in the wrong direction with that one.

L.O.V.E

I know its been a long time... I just lost my inspiration for a while...

But tonight, I'm inspired by my music (adele) and love...the real, deep down, makes your heart ache, twists your stomach up in knots kind. The kind we all want, but seldom find and wonder where the hell it is...

My close friend is getting married on saturday. And she and I are similar in the fact that we don't get "girly" about things. You know, the giddy, make you squeal, do a little dance when no one is looking kinda girly. But she's ready to burst with happiness. I watch her posts on her facebook page, and her text messages with all the exclamation marks and I can't help but smile every time. I smile even as I write this cause her joy is contagious to anyone who really loves her. Watching the people I love be in love, or happy fills me with love. So on saturday, when I watch her pledge her love, I will not be the girl sitting there wishing I was in her shoes (or if I do its because they are a FANTASTIC shade of blue) but instead be grateful that she is one less person I know who will never have to be without it.

A careful reminder to myself of how blessed with love I am; A ring on my finger, not for engagement, but for love from a special man. A ring on another as a reminder of love from my mother, another from a close friend. A necklace around my neck as a constant reminder of MY love for life. Some of us spend so much time dwelling on what we don't have, that we forget what we DO have.

It may not always be in the same form as someone else we know, however, its never any less meaningful. Nor should it ever be taken for granted. But at the end of every day, self love is most important, for without it, the rest would cease to exist. The rule in which I learned the hard way is; if you don't love you, no one else will either. It is only self love that allows us to prevail over broken hearts, bad relationships (of all kinds; romantic, family or friends)it creates a strength that allows our hearts to ignore the shit, and move on to something better. To grow from our losses, our defeats and abuse.

So, when I watch those I love, love others wholly and without reservation, while still loving themselves, I feel admiration and pride in knowing that they ignored the shit, grew stronger and better and now get to move on. I think that if we remember to forget the crap that pulls us down and take a look around once in a while to refresh our memory of how fuckin lucky we really are, things won't weigh us down so easily. And then, when they get married or have children or anything else that gives them that much joy we can say CONGRATULATIONS! and mean it without jealousy or envy.

So, my friend, I love you and your family. And I would bend over backwards for anyone I love. To be able to watch you get married fills my heart with so much joy. You deserve every happiness possible. And I swear to you, the only thing I will be jealous or envious of, is the fact that you have those amazing shoes and I don't!!!! I love you. I wish you both nothing but the best for everyday of your life.